Wow, it's been a while since I last posted on here. To be completely honest, God hasn't been showing me that much recently. Well, let me rephrase that...I haven't been really listening to what God's been trying to show me recently. I've been getting so caught up in the world lately...not necessarily the sins of the world, but i've been so busy with school work and going to work, that I didn't make time for Him. I most certainly could have, but i just didn't...partly because the times i remembered were the times I couldn't and the times I could, I either didn't want to, or i just decided that sleep was more important. Wrong decision, obviously.
It's like over time, you just start to slowly slide closer and closer to the edge. Then sometime, hopefully before you've completely jumped off the deep end, you suddenly realize how far you've actually slipped. It's really sad to see happen....especially if it's firsthand.

That's what God has really showed me the past couple weeks. Thankfully for me, I started to realize early on, before I did something really stupid. It's that slowly over time, you begin letting things slide as okay, even when you know deep down inside they're not. Before you know it, you're giving into all kinds of temptations that you don't even realize. It's exactly like the song "Slow Fade" by Casting Crowns. Some of the lyrics go "It's a slow fade when you give yourself away. It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray. Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid when you give yourself away. People never crumble in a day, it's a slow fade." It's really suprising and really sad the day you wake up and realize how much you've let yourself "fade"

But the saddest thing about it is not that I slipped away (though it is really disappointing), the saddest part is that this has happend to me before. Numerous times. It frustrates me that I keep falling for the same sins. I never learn my lesson. It reminds me of the stupid fly that always seems to get inside the window. No matter how many times it bangs itself against the window to try to break free, it never works. It just keeps running and banging until finally someone has to come along, and guide the fly out. The fly couldn't make it out by itself, it needed someone who can see the big picture, and can see more than it could to find the way back to freedom. That's how we tend to be in our relationships with God. We keep running ourselves into the same sins until God (who can see the big picture of ourlives and knows how to get us out) directs us away, to the place of freedom.

The most amazing part about it is that no matter how many times we get stuck inside the window, He will ALWAYS be there to direct us out. No matter what we get ourselves stuck in, He will always be there to help us through it. He won't necessarily take us out right away, but He will be there to comfort you along the way. It's amazing to think about how much He really does love us...and it can be really sad to think about how much of the time we don't love Him back. He was willing to give up literally everything He had, including His own life, for us, and yet we can't even give him some of the sins in our lives. We get so stuck on what we like and want as opposed to what He wants and likes that we get carried away and don't even notice how it makes Him feel. Everytime we get no the computer to look at porn, evertime we pick up that bottle of alcohol, everytime we tell a "little white lie" it proves that much more how we don't love Him. I'm definitely not saying everyone's perfect and that everyone's going to get it right, but what I am saying is that we should all (including myself) work harder, even in the little things, at living for Him. Everything we think, say, and do should be for Him. So I'm challenging you to really bring glory to Him with everything you do, say, and think. And I'm also challenging you to look at your life, and see if you've been fading recently, to see how far you've actually slipped.