To all of you who actually read this, I wanted to let you know that I'm an idiot. I failed to do what God asked me to do when He asked me to do it. I was recently in a relationship that God was telling me I needed to end. Don't get me wrong, nothing bad happened or anything, I promise. It's just that I wasn't spiritually ready for a real relationship. I felt like God was calling me to give Him my WHOLE heart in order to find out what His will is for my life. I needed to let go of it because it was keeping me from giving Him my whole heart. But I selfishly held on. I didn't want to give it up quite honestly because I liked the feeling of being wanted. I loved it how at the end of every time I saw him, he would ask me when I would next be available. And the fact that he's a pretty amazing guy! :)

But why do we, as humans, do that? How can we be so unwillingly to do what God asks us to do? How can we say 'no' even when He assures you that everything's going to turn out the way He planned, that it's going to be worth it? It all comes down to faith (or the lack thereof..).

We get so caught up on what our physical minds want as opposed to what our spiritual minds want. We get too comfortable in our worldly places that we don't want to move when God asks us. We're too afraid to give up those comforts we so long for that we miss out on what seems to be the scary thing He's calling us to do. We are faithless, so we continue on with our comfortable American lives. (don't get me wrong, I love my country, but the church has gotten so lazy and comfortable to do what is necessary to change the world around us... And if you've met my dad, you'll totally know where I get this from) But God did not call us to be comfortable while making little effort to change this dying world. He called us to follow Him, even to the parts that we won't be so comfortable in. That no matter what happens in this life, to get back up and have perseverance because in the end, it will be worth it.

Paul in Acts 14:19-20:
"Then some Jews came from Antioch and Iconium and won the crowd over. They stoned Paul and dragged him outside the city, thinking he was dead. But after the disciples had gathered around him, he got up and went back into the city..."
They STONED him and he got right back up and went right back into that town! THAT, my friend, is true discipleship, true faith. I'm not sure we would be so willing to stand up for what we believe in so much to have a city stone us, and then come right back to those same people. We have gotten way too comfortable as a whole to do what God has truly called us to do.

We need to pick up our cross and follow the One who sacrificed His own life for us. Do you think Jesus was comfortable up there, on that cross, praying for the very people who up him up there in the first place? I don't think so. We need to leave everything we have to follow Him. That is what true discipleship is, what true faith is. We need to get past what we physically want and think about what is going to come to us in the future when we're standing in front of the living God. He says that we will be blessed many times over when we get to Heaven. So do you want Him to tell you, "Well done, good and faithful servant?" If so, what is He calling you to do? What is it that you might be holding back?

I have offended you by what I have said, then good. It's time for the church of America to rise up and actually live out the faith we all claim to have. We need to live our lives for the One who gave His for us.