Friday morning I woke up to it being food distribution day. At nine o'clock in the morning, we were ready to divy out all the food into 8 boxes (which would be distributed to all the familes that are sponsered through our ministry). After about and hour and a half (and then lunch..), we were ready to head out to each family.

God has put together this incredible ministry called Hope for Home. He has orchistrated everything to work out so well that we get to live here in Guatemala, smack-dab in the middle of the need. We get to help families first-hand. We embrace with our own arms, we love with our own hearts, we see with our own eyes, and we know with our own experience. We do not take any credit for what God has done and will continue to do through this ministry because, afterall, He is the One who brought it all together and He is the One who makes it all work.

And even in this great ministry He has made, I am not a necessity. I was not needed in the distribution on Friday, though I was invited to tag along. Though I could've waited for Daddy to write about it in his blog or news letter, I got the priviledge of tagging along and seeing everything first-hand. I got to be a part of the ministry, even though the distribution very well could have been done without me. My dad is able to love on the people himself, he is able to do the distributing himself. He is perfectly able to do it on his own, yet he asked me to come with him, to join him on the journey he was going to take. He invited me to see things and to experience it first-hand. He asked me to be a part and that meant a lot to me.

And so that night when I was up on the roof (and tonight is the same), reflecting on the day, God showed me something pretty neat. I realized that it is the exact same thing with me and God's story. Because God is big enough and fully capable of doing His ministry and getting His work done without me. I am not a necessity to His story, and yet He has asked me to be a part of it. He made all of this exist by Himself. He SPOKE the stars into existance, He made the seas and formed the mountains. He personally formed each one of us. There is no one and there is no thing that God needs. He is a self-sustaining God. He can do it all on His own. And I don't just read about the stories of all that He did through other people in the Bible. He has asked me to tag along for the ride, to see His work first-hand, to be a part of His story.
And as a result, my eyes are opened to things I have never before seen, my heart feels love that I have never felt before, my arms embrace in a different way than before and my passion is instilled further in me. I am blown away by how incredible the God that I serve is. I am in awe of what He can do and I am surrounded by His grace and love. Because even though I am only me, He still chooses me to carry out His plan. He still uses little, broken me to do great things. And by this, I am humbled. Because I know that on my own I can do nothing. Without His love flowing in me and through me, I accomplish nothing but failure. He is truly good. He is ever-faithful. He has always come through in the past, so I know I can trust Him with my future. And in this I am over-whelmed with peace and I enjoy the incredible journey God is taking me on.
So how could I not live for Him? How could I not let Him reign in me? How is it that I would not give back what was given to me in the first place? How could I not let Him do what He has in His incredible plans for me?
It is because I know He has always come through in the past, because I know He will always come through in the future, that I won't let it all be in vain. It is only because of this incredible God that I am who I am today. It is only through His grace that I am here and it is only through His great mercy that I am accepted even though I mess up. I choose to let Him have His way in me because, afterall, it is through Him that everything came into existance, it is through Him that we find true love and joy in this life.
"But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect." -1 Corinthians 15:10